What is my purpose? Why am I here? Why should I live? At the mercy of depression for years and lacking the answers to these important questions, travel connoisseur Kevin Hodgon tried to take his own life and failed--twice. Perhaps life had more to offer him than he previously thought. In a desperate attempt to rid himself of these dangerous suicidal thoughts, Kevin leaves everything behind to embark on a healing journey through various parts of North and South America. Inspired by strangers' support in his viral social media post shining a light on suicide and depression, he finds renewed vigour to embrace his former passion and learn to love himself--flaws and all. In this book, Kevin details how he overcame his adversities and shares how to practice self-love, live in the moment, and defeat your inner demons. *********** Statistics on suicide are staggering. The World Health Organization estimates every 40 seconds someone will die by suicide, that's 800,000 a year. And for each person's success, another 20 will attempt suicide. And why? Because we can't talk about our mental health, as we will be outcasted from friends and family. Suicide is a subject that has too much stigma attached. More so when it comes to men's mental health. Shouldn't we be able to speak about our mental health? Suicidal thoughts are no joke, nor are any other mental health issues for that matter. It's time people learn what others might be going through. It's time people learn to accept mental health. *********** In this book, I don't tiptop around depression and suicide. I lay everything bare; I speak the raw truth of what happened behind my closed doors. I explain what was going through my mind as I made each attempt. I'm not afraid of speaking out. No one should be. Suicide was my drug. I would speak about suicide, read about suicide, research about suicide, dream about Suicide and finally attempt suicide. I was fixated with death and taking my own life. If you are contemplating ending your life, I hope my journey can show you that things do get better. My book has a steady balance, some chapters reflect on my advice and philosophy around depression and suicide, and other chapters focus on my recovery, on my journey, and on my trips. *********** 'This book is a real eye-opener! A book based on the brutally honest but important truths of the daily struggles with mental health issues. A look into what it is really like to fight against mental health but also showing there is hope out there! This book I would recommend for anyone to read, whether you have struggled yourself, a loved one, or haven't any experience! You will be left with a better understanding of suicidal thoughts, self-harm, and the struggles of carrying on. You will also find inspiration and hope. Take your time to read with an open mind and this could help you immensely!' -Surviving mental illness, one day at a time 'This book is a MUST read! It's not every day you get such powerful personal insight into the honest inner struggles of mental health, depression, and suicide. It's a complicated experience to explain even when you've personally been there. Trapped Inside Myself spotlights relatable ways to support both yourself and others through the journey of mental health recovery. It's truly an inspiring message reminding us that anything is possible even when we feel all hope is lost. You'll be left with a rekindled sense of value in this world and empowered to never give up. Absolutely a life-changing book.' -EXPLORINGNOTBORING